As 2009 is coming to a close, I had started to listen to and read commentaries on New Year's Resolutions and goal setting for the new year. I think at the end of the year, it is only natural for everybody to make plans for a better New Year.
I don't really like the idea of New Years Resolutions. They are percieved more as "wishes" than real directives and goals. In the month of December, I had come up with four areas of my life that needed immediate attention. I referred to them as focus points. The focus points involved my spirituality, health, financial status, and home-life improvement. I tried to come up with goals that were SMART (specific, measurable, attainable, relevant and time-bound). I'm doing pretty good.
God always makes sure that I have the right people in my life at the right time! As you may know, I am a conversationalist and always engaged. LOL. Anyway, all of the conversations with my soul sister friends prompted my spirit to recognize that I was in a holding pattern.
If you google "holding pattern", you will come across a wikipedia (you know I love wikipedia) entry describing it in relation to aircraft and flying. When there are issues on the ground, bad weather, traffic congestion, other emergencies..etc. the control tower uses a holding pattern to delay an incoming plane from landing at its destination. So the plane or planes will fly around in a circle waiting to land at its destination.
During a conversation with Martha (shout out to you!), I realized that every since I began to regret returning to Michigan I just started waiting. I was waiting for something to happen; waiting to leave; waiting for some magical force to prompt me to MOVE/DO/CHANGE/ADJUST. And during that time, I have been coasting along. I have been finding myself wherever the wind blew me. So for four years, I've been in a holding pattern waiting for air traffic control to tell me that the coast was clear and that I could continue on toward my destination. Four years!!
At the end of 2009, I realized that it was time for me to come out of the holding pattern for 2010!! There will always be issues and distractions on the ground, but I am the air traffic controller. I have to make sure that I am moving with clarity/focus/determination/perservence/tenancity..with unwavering will and focus toward my destination - being the best me in this lifetime!!
There are some things that are not in my control. But how I operate, react and fly on this journey is all up to me. At the end of 2009, I realized that it was time to move forward -For Real-.
I'm on my way. And I wish you a wonderful & successful journey into the New Year!